Just needed time to be me...

Didn't sleep well last night.  I tossed and turned and had sad dreams about mom.  I haven't done that in a long time.  Woke up tired and frustrated and well, just down right cranky.  

Long day at work today - didn't want to be there, didn't want to work.  It was a good day - we had lunch and even and ice cream today from a vendor.  So there was no reason why I was cranky except for me.  I struggled to get any work done - I haven't been this way in a long time.

Michael and his dad went to breakfast.  Nothing was resolved.  Papa is going to lead his life and Michael doesn't want to stir the waters.  So we are back to ground zero except for the fact that Papa and I are at odds.  I really really don't want to be around him right now and I'm not sure I would be able to bite my tongue.  I'm really going to have to pray on this one without ceasing.  I struggling bad.  

So tonight I needed some me time.  I didn't want to be mom, or wifey or anything.  I just wanted to be me.  So I took off to JoAnn's (with my coupon) and got some stuff to make a baby gift for a coworker.  It's a cute bib.  I wish I had never given this up years ago - I'm really enjoying it!  I also found a store called "The Christmas Tree Store" - absolutely nothing to do with Christmas, but all the stuff you can never find and you can't live without!  :)  And then I went to 1/2 price books.  I got some Christmas gifts for the boys - at least that is my intent.  I did some geocaching this evening and had a lot of fun.  I forgot how much I enjoy it.  The weather broke just enough to cool it off a bit so that helped a lot too!!  I did have a run in with some bees - here is my log:

 June 26 by ATMS (482 found)
Ok, so the information in my GPSr wasn't as up to date as I would have liked when I got to this cache. I didn't know it was disabled until about 10 seconds ago.

Got to ground zero and was happy to find a mulberry tree for snacking. Looked like there was another type of berry bush close, but I didn't recognize it so I didn't touch it.

Make my way to GZ and found the cache easily enough. I got the container - it looked like it had fallen from it's original hiding spot. Heard a bit of buzzing around - a few bees but being the diehard (uh, stupid) cacher that I am, I continued to open the container. The log was ruined and water was in the cache. I put in a new log and as I was putting in the pencil I dropped it - so keep your eye out for a small pencil. Oh, and the baggie I put the log in was too small - you'll need a bigger one. Put some loot in the cache and snapped the container shut (I hate when these containers get water in them 'cause the lid wasn't snapped down).

I was getting concerned about the bees - I noticed about 6 or 7 now - they weren't too agitated or cranky - just buzzing. I went to put the cache container back where it belonged and as I dropped it in there I heard LOTS of buzzing! I hightailed it out of there only to realized I had left my GPSr at GZ. So I braved it and went back in there to get it and only got stung once - although sitting here I would swear there are bees on me!!

So thanks for disabling it - maybe next time I'll have my Palm charged and I'll take note of the status!!! I'm just thankful it was 9:30 at night and the bees were getting settled down for the night!!!

Thanks for the adventure

It was fun.  A nice safe adventure and it really did me a lot of good!!! 

Michael and Andrew are at Tox City tonight for a lock in.  They are there from 10pm until 7am playing video games!  They get a "Tox Dog" at midnight and pancakes at 6am.  If you fall asleep they put hot dogs in your mouth or something equally as funny and take a picture and put it on the website.  They either went so I could have MORE time to myself or they were afraid of me. I don't know which it was - I'll assume it was the first.  :)

Thanks for listening.  I appreciate the e-mails of encouragement.  I'm struggling with this thing with Papa and I know it is not my battle to fight.  God wants me to turn it over to Him and I just need to let Him work on Papa.  Unfortunately, that is easier said than done!